I firstly need to point out that the title of this could have been misleading and no it does not mean that I am leaving my blog, but there is something that I need to talk about.
Yesterday was possibly one of the hardest days I've had for years, and I can still remember when my favourite little ball of fluff turned up as a gift in November 2007. But sadly, we had to make the decision to let her go, and for those who don't have pets or aren't dog lovers, you can stop reading now as you'll probably find the concept of this post to be ridiculous.
For me, this whole process hasn't really sunk in yet and I keep expecting to see her walking about the house or sleeping on her bed and every time I realise she's gone, it's as though it hits me all over again. But I can't even begin to explain how much that dog meant to me, yeah she was justa dog to so many people, but to me she was so much more than that. She was a true companion, a best friend and my favourite thing in this entire world and letting that go was extremely hard. She would always know when I was upset as stupid as it seems and there have been many times where I would just sit and cuddle her until I felt alright again.
There is so much I'll miss about her, not just the company because when she first arrived, she would sleep with me all the time, but also the silly quirks she held, she was the dog that everyone loved, the one that would sunbathe all summer long, eat raw pasta as though she actually enjoyed it, try and sneak onto the furniture when she knew she wasn't allowed. And she was the one dog I knew that wouldn't fetch a ball no matter how hard we tried to train her.
I didn't ever imagine writing a blog post would be this hard and there's so much more I could say, but I need to stop myself from crying and so I'll finally say that I'm glad because she looked peaceful and content and I know now that she won't be in pain any more, and that she'll be happy up there if there is a heaven.
Rest in Peace my precious little angel and best friend, I'll love you forever.